sleepy head

late in the morning - still in the middle of a dream. Something woke me up and i glanced at the clock - and literally jumped out of the bed. i'd overslept!!

It seems like i never seem to get enough of sleep...i can sleep and sleep. And then, sleep some more. i think it has to be the dreams - i mean, even if i nap for 30 minutes, i dream. It is like i live in two worlds. And my dreams seem so real - when i wake up, sometimes it is with much reluctance. Yesterday, i dreamed i was reading a book - and i can even remember some lines from the book - as i was waiting for him to come to me. Aren't dreams supposed to be a reflection of your mental and emotional state? i only wish i can go on dreaming - and remembering them after i wake up.

i turned down tomorrow's invitation. Was feeling a bit guilty as only a selected few were invited. But then, i think i have had enough of small talk. In two weeks, i have declined two dos. Words will spread around that i am acting hoity-toity and hopefully, no one will invite me anymore. Such bliss. i want to be unpopular - beats me why. Maybe when i get there, i might want to be popular. Sometimes, i think i go out of my way to be mean, esp to people who like me. It is like i try to test their patience, try to see just how mean i have to be to lose their affection. Weird. i am such a weird character. Will never be able to figure myself out.

S wrote to tell me his efficiency has gone down as i am not there anymore to fight with him. Maybe they should hike my salary just for increasing project productivity. What a thought.

S -god, all the people in my life seems to have names starting with S - has gone to LA with his parents. i have never been to LA - and have no interest in going there either. Maybe because everyone wants to go there. i am an extreme case of inverted snob.

One book a day - that is my motto now. i have finished about 12 books so far! Making up for all the time when i stayed away from books. i might die of a book overdose - maybe they will find me in bed, covered in books, with a delighted expression on my face!

aurora borealis

aurora borealis - one of my must-see sights before i kick the bucket.

flunked...

i flunked the driving test much to my amusement. i got 9 questions wrong out of 36! It was fun! i went around telling everyone i failed! :) i will give the test again next week.

Much to my dismay, i have been invited to a barbecue party on sat and a dinner party on sunday. i am thinking of turning down the barbecue invitation. But the sunday do is a must-go so there goes my sunday solitude.

Work has been exciting. Got some tricky bugs to fix. A little challenge is always good for the soul.

sunday solitude

Another day spent without seeing another human face - apart from those on TV - i am quite enjoying this solitude. Was thinking maybe i would spend the next weekend without turning on the TV, with just my books to see how total solitude feels like. Is this healthy? But once in a while, i think it is great just to be all alone, with my thoughts for company - talking to myself, smiling at myself in the mirror and actually liking what/who stares back at me!

i gorged on and completed another book - A mind to murder - not actually thought provoking stuff but what the heck! Solitude and crime. Does solitude breed criminal thoughts? Not that any of my thoughts, well, at least today's thoughts, bordered on the criminal. But i was wondering if i, say, spend a month like this, would i become insane? Or would i achieve nirvana? Maybe i would end up penning a "how to be all alone and not be lonely" kind of bestseller. i think i am already on my way to a loony bin!

i am planning to give the driving test exam tomorrow. Not too keen on driving here but it has been ages since i gave an exam and i want to see whether i would flunk. i have not even read the manual but some previous question sheets. The other night i dreamed i was going to give an exam and i had not even completed reading the book. i was scared shit! i mean, when i was a kid, i gave exams after two-three rounds of revision because getting the highest marks was the only thing in my head then. These days, the only thing on my mind is - blank. A nice peaceful kind of blank.

Maybe that is the beauty of solitude - it cleanses your mind. Of everything. And leaves it spanking clean for you to start all over again. What more fun than to corrupt a blank mind all over again.

sat night ....

Finally managed to drag myself up from bed at 2 in the afternoon. Ema will have a fit if she hears about it! Had pancakes and a croissant for lunch....got back to bed again to finish a book -cold and pure and very dead - yes, that is the name of the book. Had bhelpuri smothered with aloo...

Called up my sis and talked to her about 2 hours. After we finally managed to get off the phone, i was wondering what we talked about non-stop for so long. It is about everything and nothing-gossip of the family, who is doing what, who said what to whom, who is going where. Then the TV going-ons - what is happening in which serial, who got booted out in Indian Idol..Then bollywood news-did i know bipasha broke up with john, did she know lara has broken up with dorji! And himesh, how wooden he is, who are the people watching his movie....blah blah and more blah. Girls!!

S's parents are going back earlier than planned as his thakuma is sick. the poor guy was so depressed. i told him to tell kakima i will come over and cook briyani for them before they leave. Trying to show off my culinary skills! shesh...

i had half boiled eggs for dinner. i think i just might transform into a twig by the time i go back. god, if he comes to know, i will get an earful.