i need to write..but nothing is in my head....or rather, everything is in my head but nothing comes out...

Is it cruel of me to wish away all bonds - every relation i have held close, every love i have treasured ?? But i feel this way now....i just to cut loose all bonds...i just want to be by myself...would i bleed less then? would these dark thoughts be bleached ? would my mind find peace ? would the dark demons in me die in their sleep then?

What do i want? what do i long more?