stormy friday

i think i made my sister cry today. My second big sister. She is someone who can never say no, who lets people walk all over her. You would never think we were related - we are like mutton and dal (eh?). Somehow, she seems to have inherited all the meek genes of our parents.

She called me up today to ask me if i was leaving tomorrow. She went on about how late she has to stay back at the school where is the headmistress. Now, this school is run by my uncle & aunt and they roped her in as the headmistress for the primary classes. And her tales of woe start from there. She is over-worked, gets blamed for everything..and yet, she insists on continuing because she feels it might create bad blood in the family. Oh hell, she would work herself to death just because she wants to be nice to people who don't even appreciate all the hard work she is putting in. i got mad at her because we have been telling her to quit but she keeps on with her "how can i let them down" whinings.

Today, what with my moods being all black, i just lost it. Normally, i don't usually tell her anything - but today, i just gave it to her proper for letting people treat her like a doormat. It is not just the school thing. At her home, she lets her sis-in-law, mil all treat her like dirt. She would never answer back, do all the hard work...Which makes my blood boil. And i am so frustrated because i cannot do anything to help her unless she helps herself. She is the one who has to stand up for herself. i am ready with all the help she would need if only she would first realise that she has to love herself first, rather than seek others' approval.

When i told my two sisters about it, they asked me whether she cried. Being the insensitive bitch i am, i didn't notice. i feel bad now. But i just had to tell her off. She deserves better than this. Nothing hurts more than seeing people you love letting themselves suffer. i wish she would learn to say 'no'. i wish she would realise that life is precious and that she should never give anyone the power to hurt her.