rained out....

Trip postponed by three weeks. Will be flying to delhi next week for a family emergency.Was planning to surprise him on his birthday by landing up unannounced on his doorstep.That plan has been washed away. And the rain reflects my gloomy mood.

hell, i am depressed on a friday..

Just one week left. And i am depressed. Not even the excitement of meeting him again lessens the sinking feeling. Maybe it is the thought of having to stay there for such a long time. So far away from home. i think the one thing i am most worried about is my sister staying alone. i guess i am over-protective when it comes to her.

koyi yeh kaise bataye
ki woh tanha kyon he
woh jo apana tha wahi
aur kisi ka kyon he
yahi duniya hai to
phir aisee ye duniya kyon hai
yahi hota hai to
aakhir yahi hota kyon hai

quote unquote

"not knowing the truth does not stop the truth from being true"

a pleasant monday

A pleasant monday for a change.S gave me a present - a book. It was so unexpected that that i was blushing. jhumpa's intepreter of maladies. He asked me whether i have the book in my collection and i glibly lied that i don't have it. Because i was so touched by the gesture of this guy actually buying a book for me! He is a colleague who has joined the exclusive club of people i call friends (and not because he got me a book!). We never seem to agree on anything and always end up arguing. But, we are as thick as thieves. We gang up on the kids and bully them, ask people embarassing questions just to see them squirm in their seats! i know, i know - i am so evil.

i am gonna miss him.

the moon and my moods...

Don't know why but my moods have been swinging like monkeys high on grass. The morning started on a nasty mood. i picked up a fight with him over, yes, nothing. i did say some mean things. And to his credit, the guy did not lose his cool. These days, i get irritated over nothing. i am sure it must be the full moon. Ema always did say that i am "thasi thanou houba". In the end, nothing is my fault - it is either my genetic make-up or the environment or the position of the celestial bodies!!

On the work front, i am to be the sacrificial lamb, no, make it sacrificial bitch.
Another group wanted someone to complete something in two weeks time and the higher-ups decided to loan me. So here i am, ready to jump into bed with the deadline! The lead is a French guy and i am bowled over by his accent. Now if only i can get past this deadline and die in peace.

i have to start shopping - buy the things i know i can get there - you know that (illogical)logic about stuffs being cheaper here! Cheapo - that is what i am becoming. Ok, clothes (no fun buying them from the kids' section there), shoes (hardly ever get the kind i want in my size) and god knows what else i will pick up. Maybe i will just become a homely gypsy and settle down in one place. Or maybe i will just cut all ties and run away to Africa. Or maybe i will just curl up and die. The moon - it is the moon...

Amuba leichin
mumhanlo atiya
puduna chatkharo
purnima gi thaja se