Monday, November 19, 2007

so tell me, do you fight?

The weekend – sigh, the weekend that was – punctuated with fights and make-up sessions. i am so tired of our silly tiffs – Friday always seem to bring out the worse in both of us. We both need a lesson in conflict handling. OK, making up is oh-so exciting but i would rather do without the fights. Do other couples fight too? Or are they so into each other that there is no scope of misunderstanding? i wonder.

Maybe it is partly my fault because i am too independent – i am too much into myself sometimes, OK, most of the times. But why should being independent be a fault? i guess i don’t like compromising and i cannot sugar coat my feelings – i mean i can be so blunt at times that it hurts the people i love. But what is the point of not being yourself with the ones you love – or even the ones you don’t? i mean, i don’t see any points in hiding my opinions or saying things i don’t mean just to make people happy. i know, as usual, i am being extreme. But i have been born with this attitude (eh?) – i love blaming everything on my genes! i just cannot hide my feelings – i have got too expressive a face for my own liking sometimes. Truth be told, i don’t like hiding my feelings – i would rather have it out in the open than have it festering inside. So be it crushes or loathing, you can always see it on my face. Which makes me a difficult person to be with – i admire his patience and love for having stuck to me for so long (it could be i have made him sick of girls now!! ha ha. Hey, i do have a weird sense of humour, ni?)

Oh enough of all this soul-baring-wearing stuff.

We are still undecided about which car to buy – it fluctuates from a 800 to Zen/Getz and their cousins. Now we are thinking of checking out the Indica Xeta. Such indecisive frogs we are. Which reminds me that i should stop being just a lazy ass and get my license.

And we are both going crazy about the plan for the flat – we keep changing our minds about the size and locations of the rooms. We went to meet the promoter on Saturday and he did help us out with some suggestions. He said yes to my plan to have those folding doors leading out to the balcony. But no bay windows .Now i am thinking of signing up for one of those online 3d software – just 15$ for a month and it is supposed to be helpful – much cheaper than hiring an architect or interior designer i say.