sunday solitude

Another day spent without seeing another human face - apart from those on TV - i am quite enjoying this solitude. Was thinking maybe i would spend the next weekend without turning on the TV, with just my books to see how total solitude feels like. Is this healthy? But once in a while, i think it is great just to be all alone, with my thoughts for company - talking to myself, smiling at myself in the mirror and actually liking what/who stares back at me!

i gorged on and completed another book - A mind to murder - not actually thought provoking stuff but what the heck! Solitude and crime. Does solitude breed criminal thoughts? Not that any of my thoughts, well, at least today's thoughts, bordered on the criminal. But i was wondering if i, say, spend a month like this, would i become insane? Or would i achieve nirvana? Maybe i would end up penning a "how to be all alone and not be lonely" kind of bestseller. i think i am already on my way to a loony bin!

i am planning to give the driving test exam tomorrow. Not too keen on driving here but it has been ages since i gave an exam and i want to see whether i would flunk. i have not even read the manual but some previous question sheets. The other night i dreamed i was going to give an exam and i had not even completed reading the book. i was scared shit! i mean, when i was a kid, i gave exams after two-three rounds of revision because getting the highest marks was the only thing in my head then. These days, the only thing on my mind is - blank. A nice peaceful kind of blank.

Maybe that is the beauty of solitude - it cleanses your mind. Of everything. And leaves it spanking clean for you to start all over again. What more fun than to corrupt a blank mind all over again.