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The elf and I went to a garage sale and got some books for him.

And I have been sneezing - I hate this. I felt a bit feverish in the afternoon. I cannot afford to be sick when I am all alone with the elf. Fucking body of mine. Cannot figure out why I keep getting sick, yeah, I know.. I don't take good care of it, that is why..but I bought the fruit, remember? And never ate them...

I just need to pop in a lemolate and get this fricking body up and running because I promised to take the elf on a show tomorrow. 

I need to sleep.....and hope the night does its magic on me and I will be my cheerfully grumpy self in the morning..

....

The day went off well enough. But the evening saw me blowing my lid off at my mother. I love her, yes, I do but sometimes when I say something to chastise her, she goes like ' I will never say anything again. You people can do whatever you like. I have no say...'.

That makes my blood boil. I mean, why can't she just listen to the rationale behind what I am saying instead of thinking i am attacking her? I was so pissed off ...

I am a bad daughter, I guess. But sometimes, I want her to not look at the negative side and not go on harping on what anyone is saying. I want her to realize that it just does not matter.

I think I will call up and maybe just say to take care. I am also at the age when I do not want to spend a night knowing I must have hurt her.  

On a bright side, the elf likes the quinoa fried 'rice'. So we have had it for dinner two nights straight! 

One of the guys doubled over in laughter when T told him I have been told that I am overweight by the doctor. It is now the butt of Tjoke. If I eat anything he tells me I should not be eating as I am overweight.

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The elf and I have made a habit of going to the park. He scooters around in a circle while I pedal like mad on the stationary cycle.

The good thing about Singapore is that you find exercise equipments at the park. Basic equipments but still, better than nothing.

 My eating healthy phase is slowly fading! As expected. I still have avocado, grapefruit and pineapple, not to mention the green apples and bananas, hidden away in the fridge. I am so f&$&&& lazy.

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It is a beautiful life - if only we could open our eyes to it.

10

Who would have ever thought I would start eating healthy or at least try? The elf and I went to the supermarket and bought fruits and quinoa seeds..a miracle...

I bought all the fruits and stuff for the smoothie but I am actually getting lazy - trust me to do exactly that. But I had quinoa for lunch and a green apple so nothing is in vain, I suppose. And I even drank two glasses of water after I got up. Gulp! I feel like I am straying off the nice bad path I do love trotting along.

Maybe I will get around to the smoothie...maybe I will end up wearing a bikini the next time we go on a holiday --as if!! 

Now to undo all the good work, I am off to eat canned mackerel curry with Hawaizar ametpa...what more could a girl ask?

9

Went for a play with the elf- it was funny in parts but not quite upto the mark. I expected better..

We dropped into bras basah complex to search for books. I am happy the elf has turned out like me when it comes to books. He has a collection of books that puts mine to shame! And he is constantly hankering for books and books. Makes me poor heart all aglow..

Books are so expensive here that it makes me want to cry. I can never forget the ecstatic moment when I found a garage sale with nice books going for 1$! I would have brought all if not for him giving me hints that it was getting a bit too much out of hands. 

I bought three books - I am in the middle of so many books. Is this what old age does to you- make you start a book and not see through to the end? Or maybe if it does not grip me by my neurons, I find it hard to finish a book these days. Oh I am growing old...

I have not baked or visited my clay stuffs since he came back. Maybe I should start again.

I think I like my new hair style - it makes me look less frumpy. Vain bitch that I am.

8

Too tired to think of anything to wrte. Went to see a place for rent. Much to my surprise, it was nice. Now waiting to see if the landlord accepts our offer.

7

I am officially overweight. I went for my health screening review and the doctor said I can lose 1.6 kgs to have a good BMI. I told everyone who cared to listen at work and they laughed as if it was the best joke of the year.

Apart from that, despite me over eating and not moving a muscle, I seem to be in good shape. No cholesterol issue, good liver, kidney. No sugar. 

I came home, stripped down to my undies and weighed myself and the weight was more than 3 kgs less than what was in the report. Either their scale is defective or my jeans and jacket weigh too much. T-da said if I told anyone in FC they will laugh me off.

The elf and I are doing good. Fingers crossed.

T-da and I ate fruit for lunch. The kiwi was too sour so he got me some salt. I realized with salt, kiwi is tasty... I have been told to eat more fibre. And fruit. And drink more water. Not anything new that I didn't know of before.

Had my pap smear. It is not much fun I tell you. Neither is someone inserting something up your ass to check for piles. Neither is exposing yourself to a complete stranger.

 

6

He has left... Parting pangs again...I hope I can make it...,

The elf and I have made plans to watch the kidfest theatre festival. We hope to keep ourselves entertained that way..and watch the Lego movie and maybe run off to Bintan for a weekend...

I had French toast for dinner! I will start my smoothie diet from next week.

I have my doctor review tomorrow and the pap smear. 

And the house hunting drama starts again as the lease expires in March. I wish I was rich enough to buy a house and forget all about rent and lease and all that. 

I need to start the clay thingy again...and bake maybe..and write...

5

This time tomorrow we would have said our byes. As much as I hate it, I know he needs to do it. So here I am, trying to  be strong. I don't know how I will manage but manage I have to.

I will miss him. Oh how I will miss him....

4

Took stuffed chicken wings prepared by him and everyone said it was delicious. And everyone was amazed to think that he gave me the haircut!  Am I a lucky girl or what???

3

He gave me a haircut. And dyed my hair with henna for me. Isn't he the best? I hate long hair - he likes long hair. But I have never had the patience to grow it. Long hair makes me grumpy because I think I look horrible - so much for my claims that I am not vain. But I am, I am.

I had gone without dyeing my hair for about maybe 6 months and I was beginning to resemble a old hag - which I am. I had streak of grey hair which I thought I would continue to show off. But vanity won and I got him to dye it for me. I think I will just shear off everything. 

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OK , here I am. Survived the 6 o clock meeting with grace ! 

Got a new phone iPhone 5s for him as I renewed my contract. 

Got the passport photos for the elf whose passport has to be renewed. He is excited that he will have two passports like we do!

Ate at TimHoWan at Bedok Mall. We had to wait in a queue - the sitting arrangement is not so classy like din tai fung but the food is good. I liked the baked bun with pork and the dumplings which had peanuts- peanuts make me go nuts!

We are going to Chinatown to attend the inauguration of the Chinese new year celebrations. Hope it does not rain and hope we do make it on time considering that the two of them are still enjoying their evening siesta.

Changed the shorts at Uniglo to get another one which I hope I would wear instead of it ending up with all the hibernating clothes I buy but never wear. 

What else? Hmmm... Nothing

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The first post of this trial run where I will try to blog everyday..

Let's see how I fare...

Work is a bitch right now what with all the stuff I have to complete and I have a meeting at 6 in the morning tomorrow. Wtf.

He leaves on the 15th and it will be a trial by fire for me as I try to juggle everything alone. I can only hope I can cope with grace.

I am gaining weight and I feel like I will burst at the seams though no one seems to believe when I tell them. I have decided to live on smoothies for the rest of my life...ok, at least for lunch. At least I will be ingesting fruit which I don't now. That way, at the next holiday I can at least slip into a swimsuit and not feel like I am a whale in human disguise.

I need to buy new shoes. Done for today. Phew.

Back

After a week of no work and all play, I am back to reality. Bali was good and we had fun. Got sunburned from playing around. It rained for the first two days but we had fun pottering around in our ponchos!

Cannot wait for another vacation! How I wish life was one long vacation...

I am trying to be more regular and hopefully post every day. I am posting this as I stand in the bus going back home.

K related a story of his 'traumatic' experience of a female trying to seduce him in a party and it had me in fits!