The words have dried up, the chasm too deep to fill in... And I wonder is it worth saving..
Love..what does it mean? I don't know anymore. But I have this ache inside, this longing..for whom, for what, I don't know..
How easy is it to forget? How easy is it to cut your losses and move on? How easy is it to wipe the taste of love from your life? How easy is it just to stumble from one second to the next? How easy is it to just live and not be alive???
What am I doing here? Why? What is the purpose of it all?? What is the meaning of this meaningless existence? I am so tired of all the questions. I am so tired of the constant echoes of discontent in my soul.
I wish I could fade away - like my dreams that seduced me into thinking there was more to this life.. I wish I could pour away my life, one meaningless drop after another into the endless gutter that surrounds me.. I wish I could cut away these chains that tie me...
And now I know why I turn away from any intoxicant. Because I know only too well how easily I will succumb to just drifting away.. trying up chase my dreams on the wings of an illusion...
