i think i hate him. i want to end things after we wind up things over here. i want this to be over. i am just so fed up of things.

i just hope i have the strength to see this through, not to bend to pressure again. Somehow, love does not make sense to me anymore. i am not even sure i am still in love. And i don't want to be with someone i don't love. i would rather be alone than be miserable this way.

i think he knows that this time he has lost me. For good.

i hope i don't change my mind, yet again. i hope i don't fall in love with him again. i hope i don't succumb to his moves. i just want to be alone.