Back

After a week of no work and all play, I am back to reality. Bali was good and we had fun. Got sunburned from playing around. It rained for the first two days but we had fun pottering around in our ponchos!

Cannot wait for another vacation! How I wish life was one long vacation...

I am trying to be more regular and hopefully post every day. I am posting this as I stand in the bus going back home.

K related a story of his 'traumatic' experience of a female trying to seduce him in a party and it had me in fits! 

Nearly the end

One more day to this year... But then,why do we make such a big deal... It is just one day after another...

Was sick again- I think my body is giving up. Puked and had fever. Then got up today for the health screening because I left it till the last moment and if I didn't do it before 31st, I will not be able to claim the 400 $. Went to CGH because they were the only people who had any slot left.

Off to Bali tomorrow for one week. How is that for ending and starting a year! I hope I get better tomorrow....I will be damned if i let this body ruin my travel plans...

Sad

I lay listless

On a bed made of thorns.

I shed tears of bitterness

That burns and scalds my cheeks.

I curl up into myself

And squash the dreams inside me.

I reach inside and strangulate

Each of my unborn dreams.

I sit up and scream

A silent scream he will never hear.

I cut up the bonds 

That have tied me down for so long.

I climb the highest tower

And with a smile 

I slowly spread my invisible tattered 

wings

And I fly....

Away from you...

Love

Love, someone said, is not made of stone

It had to be made and unmade like bread.

So we made our love 

into bread.

And, slice by slice, we ate it up.

Until crumbs are all that we have left.

???

OK, so we got invited to the birthday party of his friend's daughter. The time said 12. We arrived there at 12 and find we are the first person - the only person there was the girl's father!!! WTF? Indian standard time.

So here i am, sitting in a corner, nursing a headache and wondering when this would end -and  it has not even started yet...

Yesterday, we went to DTF for tda's birthday lunch. We love that place. Just because he did not want a cake, we got one!!! I did not have much of an appetite - k and the others kept pressing me to eat more. Which made want to scream .. I hate it when anyone does that.

The past few days, I have been going back to the past. Unwillingly. Memories of distant places and even more distant people kept flashing in and out. I know my defenses are down but I cannot take this anymore. I want to give up the elf for adoption and run away to the Himalayas loaded with books and grass. I still need to buy a iPad.

That or I want to become a street walker and sell my body and soul and anything that is left.

I think I am finally losing the plot.