drama queen

Well, the drama continues. Yesterday, i had made up my mind that i would go back to my place if i didn’t hear from him. His flight was supposed to land somewhere around 4 in the evening. Yesterday was, as usual, another hectic day what with overseeing the juniors and trying to complete my own tasks. In one sense it was good as i didn’t have time to mull over why he didn’t call me up. Well, around 5:30, he did call me up. He wanted to know how soon i would be able to leave office and come. i acted cold (which comes naturally to me!) and told him i would come after i was done with everything. After running after the kids to get everything out and sending the status report, it was almost 6 by the time i was ready to call it a day. Pervert that i am, i dilly-dallied in the office so it was almost 7 by the time i reached his place. He knew i was miffed at him so he didn’t act cold. In fact, the silly guy was giving me his best smiles! But it takes more than some sweet smiles to soothe my ruffled feathers.

i am still sore at him. i know i am behaving like a kid. But hell, that is me. Take it or leave it.

love's labour not lost???

He is coming today. Am i excited? Well, we had a fight yesterday so i am trying to curb my enthusiasm about it. i didn’t even call him up to wish him happy journey. i know i am being petty, which i am.

Yesterday was a bandh over here. So i stayed over at his place which is about 10 minutes walking distance from my office. Slogged my ass off in the office the whole day. Just because he was coming today, i took the trouble of going back to my place after office, got my things and replenished his kitchen supplies. i don’t know why (OK, maybe because i was not in the mood to talk to him) but he thought i didn’t want to tidy up his place for him – it has been lying unlived for about a year now. Now, i really got irritated at him for jumping to conclusions (he must have been a rabbit in his last incarnation). So i told him he can stay there all by himself. i thought i would just take my things and go back to my place. But i thought of him coming home all tired and having to clean up. For a change, i didn’t up and go but decided to do what i had come to do. i stayed up till 1 in the night. By the time i was done, i was ready to drop down dead. i don’t know whether to stay angry with him or make up.

S sent over a bag for me and the earphones for my iPod (i manage to lose it within 2 days of using it!). He is a sweetheart – well, i always bully him but he has never been anything but nice to me. In fact, he is someone who will always insist on being nice even when i am mean to him – he says he cannot be angry with me no matter how much i provoke him. Ummm…

monday gripe

i am turning out to be a real pain-in-the-ass senior for the kids. When i am in charge, i know they feel the pinch. But hell, i know i am doing the right thing. i have never demanded of them what i cannot or would not do. i am a casual person most of the times - i play pranks, don’t throw my weight around, not that i have much to throw but that does not mean i am less serious when it comes to work. i guess they expect to see me smiling all the time. So i guess it is a shock to them when i pull them up for their silly mistakes – which gets my blood boiling, my blood obviously has a low boiling point – or tell them off for not being disciplined enough. i do fool around in the office but i have never let my work suffer. The younger generation at work – they are driving me bitchy with their unprofessional attitude – they come in late, go for long tea breaks, and apart from a few of them, their work is sloppy, to say the least. i know i am going to be unpopular but i am going to try to change things around here – just so my blood can cool down! They are not bad kids – they just need to be shown that you can have fun and still be good at what you do. It is all about striking the right balance in life.

This reminds me of my school days. i used to be one of the naughtiest, talkative girl in school, always getting into trouble but my marks belied that. So my classmates used to think i was putting on an act of being carefree in school because they could not understand how anyone like me could top the class – i guess i was just the opposite of what they expected in a topper. My tuition teacher told my father he could not understand how someone so naughty like me could be so good at studies! i was like hell, am i supposed to be a quiet mouse just because i have brains?

My sister went home yesterday for her vacation so i am all alone. i went to see her off at the airport and she repeated the whole run-to-catch-the-flight episode – i guess this runs in my family! i went to his place (he will have another fit for not saying word ‘our place’ ) and enacted the role of a housecleaner. And i was wondering whether i was doomed to spending all my weekends cleaning up either his place or mine. M told me i have too many places i call home! Damn right.

S has been morose since morning – i was surprised that he did not start a fight with me or call me silly names just to see me fuming. When asked he told me he had a fight with his wife and she hit him with their son’s water bottle!! i was nearly in tears with laughter – god and to think i am the same person who vehemently opposed domestic violence but i know she didn’t have any malicious intent so this does not constitute domestic violence or does it? Now this has got me confused! i told him he could start a battered-husbands club.

aur ekta post...

Conducted an interview. Interviews are such fun if you know where to look for the fun. Sometimes, it is fun to take a candidate who is too over-confident a peg or two down. But most of the time, you encounter people who are nervous and too eager to please. There have been times when i have felt bad for a candidate who cannot answer anything so i try to at least throw them an easy question or two just so that they do don’t feel disheartened.

Yesterday, i decided to clean the kitchen (instead of my wardrobe, the less daunting task of the two) and i spent almost 6 hours with a head smothered with henna scrubbing everything till the kitchen glittered. And i discovered that we can spend at least another year without buying anything – it is like we have been hoarding up on things as if a disaster was on the horizon. We have detergent, toothpaste, soap, mosquito repellent, all variety of cleaning agents (toilet, glass, floor etc etc. etc.), shampoo and whole lot of stuff that would last us nearly a lifetime!! Yah allah… We are like squirrels hoarding up for a long winter ahead.

gadget wadget

My gadget-crazy guy wants an iPhone. Ummm. So i am looking around to see how/where i can get an unlocked version of it for him. i told him i could not understand what is so great about it – but then i am technologically retarded. For me any phone will do as long as i can talk. i had been using the oldest surviving model of Nokia (1100 or something like that) which was handed down from him. Well, most reluctantly, i had to part with it because the front casing gave away! i don’t like the new mobile i am using right now – it is shiny and ‘kat’. i am ashamed to be seen with it because it looks so fashionable! So i keep it hidden in my bag..i miss my old phone..i have been thinking of searching for a front cover for it so i can go back to using it.

Are all guys gadget-crazy? Maybe guys do need their toys even after they grow up. Ummm..Or it could be that i am an outdated dinosaur – which i am when it comes to certain things.

He likes my iPod better than his. Because mine is black and it looks damn sexy. i have used it like maybe two times after i got it as my birthday present. It had been lying unused in some corner for more than a year before i remembered it! i have mp3 player, cd-man etc all gathering dust. Maybe i don’t cherish things as much as i should. Maybe because i am not too enamored of them.

Tomorrow is a holiday. Makes me feel good knowing i can sleep in late. If i can manage to gather enough energy, i think i will go a cleaning spree tomorrow. i am thinking of revamping my wardrobe – will give away my clothes to charity. i have clothes i have bought and never worn even once! i stick to my set of favourite clothes and keep on wearing them till i can’t wear them without looking indecent! Just like i buy shoes but keep wearing just the single pair i love day in and day out!